Friday, January 2, 2015

I Resolve to Be Normal


My resolution this year is to be NORMAL. 

And even though it is only the second day of the year I can tell that normal is going to be a struggle. 

What do normal people do? For starters, they sleep at night. They spend time with friends and family, laugh and talk about pleasant matters. They see movies, dine out on occasion, travel once or twice a year. They go to work, but they also make time for their family and for themselves. 

I want that. All of the above.

I want to enjoy my days instead of just fighting to survive. I want the venomous communications with my ex husband to end. I want to see my loved ones' names on my caller ID, not my lawyer’s.

I want peace. Yet, how does one make peace with someone who does not want it?

I want to be normal. I just don't know how to get there.

I need a plan.